. . Love Laced In Cyanide . .

I haven't been taking my pills for about a month.
I just started taking my regular dose and I been feeling really suicidal.
My grades were going down the shitter last marking period.
I didn't show my parents my report card, and I am afraid of myself.
I don't know what my mom is going to do when she gets home today.
I can't manage anymore fighting between us.
Right when thing going well, what great timing, haha.
Life is a carosel on speed.
I have no real friends.
I walk home alone.
My heart is an empty hotel room and I can't take it anymore.
If persay I do die, just remember I don't blame anyone.
If I don't come to school Stephanie, just remember I love you and others as well.
I'm just to weak to go on.
See you all on the other side.

-Riaasa