. . Love Laced In Cyanide . .

I'm so naïve to think I would fit in with other people. I'm just an outsider looking in. Is it wrong that I feel everything I do and everything I say is wrong. I'm sorry I come off as a pessimist, here let me smile and make you feel better. I'll just be screaming inside wishing for an end. You laugh at my outer flaws and try to make me cry. You love my pain, it's just another boost to your ego. Scoff me like you did others, it's all a stupid game. I am just the loser, outsider, freak. But you know what at least I am proud of who I am. I accept me and no some superficial image of vanity.
That's all that matters to me, not you.

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Today sucked. It was horrible. Rain+Snow= The slushy mess I had to walk home in. I almost slipped 3 times. Luckily I didn't. School sucked the big one. I felt depressed all day. 5th period my English teacher told me she wasn't going to be here. So I assuming she wasn't there told my classmates that I had to go to School Based Youth and sent a pass down with them. But my teacher was here today, which I didn't know. In the middle of the meeting I had to be called back to class by another classmate. It was embarrassing. I came back to class my teacher asked why and got in my face. I would have fucking cussed her out by now, but I stood my ground. I went to work. For Spanish I got detention for reading(not really reading but I had the book open). Pamela went home early. I had to go to lunch with Stephanie, it gave us time to talk. It was very slippery outside. Math I was bored as hell. Graphic Arts sucked ass, as usual.
I went to detention after school. It was less than 5 minutes. I had to get my stuff from my locker using an alternate route, due to the security guards wanting us out the school.
Outside was cold and wet. I got home at 3:15 pm due to me running half the way. My hair was in disarray, my book bag, pants, and hair was wet.
Currently, I want to go to sleep or do some drug but I'm out. :( I have 2 projects to do.

Missing you, piece me together again.

Mood: Melancholy
Listening to: KoRN - Thoughtless
Reading: Thirteen Reasons Why
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